Trying to be idle

Worcestershire, March 2025

I am consciously trying to fit less into my days, but it isn't easy. I've just spent a happy hour browsing the different live venues in my area for films, shows, theatre and live music, and booked two events, one for later this month and the other in October. On the other hand, on Thursday evening I am considering neither going to badminton nor supporting our introductory course to meditation and Buddhism. But I have agreed to lead the Buddhist group on Tuesday, because nobody else is available, so how could I refuse? (Update - the person who was supposed to send out the email about the Tuesday evening meeting failed to do so, so only three people came and one of them was an hour late. So I'm saving my idea for next time I'm asked to lead.)

I am no nearer to solving this puzzle of how to spend my time. Everything is flexible given that I don't have a paid job, but there is quite a bit that needs to get done - things like insurance renewal, house maintenance, keeping the garden in check - so I find it difficult to be at home doing nothing. For a while I tried to abandon the lists that keep track of the jobs that are waiting, because I thought it might make it easier to do nothing, but instead I was always on edge worrying that I would miss a commitment or a deadline. There is a good deal of satisfaction in crossing jobs off the list, but the list never gets any shorter. I don't know what the answer is.

One of the jobs on the list relates to my progress towards ordination. I'm meeting three good friends who have agreed to support me in this, and to get the most out of the meeting it's been suggested that I write a kind of report. There's a framework for this in eight sections, but I'm finding it extremely tedious - in fact, I'm writing this as a distraction before going back to carry on with section five. It will be easier next time.

Given that I am determinedly trying to do less, there's not much more to say here. I've been to see mum and we had a lovely trip to Lidl, I've been working in the garden, watching some tennis, some films and reading, board games, badminton and volunteering. It's interesting that this is what I've been up to when I'm trying not to do too much.